time is running out

what ive been doing.. hmm preparing for my April classes and the trip down South on March 28
and avoiding some part of me (my Toho boys T_T, but this is normal for me - it's been 2 weeks now)
a night spent reading Simon/Ryan gossip discussion on datalounge haha (and funny vids of them on youtube lol)
just like I did with catching up on J2 news but this one took me longer because there's so many stuff about J2
and now it's dried up for me that I'm reading conspiracy theories about AIDS.
I'm sorry I guess it's my ADD kicking in u_u


"I believe cancer is on the rise because of environmental reasons, including wireless devices and processed food. This data is known but is kept hidden from the public."

written in DL,
and it makes me think of the plenty Church scandals arising.
and then train of thought goes to an analysis of a passage in Revelations, I forgot what, about a red.. a red something that is powerful but will crumble from the inside and the church was included as possible matching choices (the other choices were Russia, China, don't remember the others...)

and then I'm a bit sad, while hearing Muse in my head.
because although you have this feeling that indeed, time is running out, in many many ways, nothing can really take away the fear and sadness of it.
don't know how prepared I am, and I just wish before I die to at least give back to my parents and do a missionary work, and that I could pray enough for me and my family and God's children.
I pray my family be safe the most..
Your Will be done. Amen.