this ominous year?

Are things any different? not sure, maybe the weather? Might be stranger than before.
But definitely the sun, so active!
It's probably making me crazy.

Oh but, one things for sure, I've lost my patience.
One example is playing Megaten, I started to hate it after playing non-stop for 3 months lol.
Was I burned out? Hehe, guess so, faster than I normally did.
It's one of the best games out there, and I really do wanna 'finish' it, but idk.. it's not boring, I'm just bored with it for now.
I AM BORED OF A LOT OF THINGS NOW.

Yunjae makes me.. feel again, these days lol. ('w'*)~
And I still miss 5TVXQ, and will wait for their comeback.

I also.. just read online. Manga probably takes 70% of my online time, then lately fanfictions at 20%, then 10% checking my favorite sites. There are days though, that the topic/obsession of the week/month would take up 100% of my time.. >.>;

These times are good though, I was able to learn about a lot of things, and re-think of things I thought I've figured out.
Like, how nature will definitely kill us all, not secret societies, not aliens.
Also, that we're really insignificant. How we lived this life matters, but not necessarily human life itself.. we're not really that valuable, like really. It's the people, that gives value to human life, and that's good. Specially if it's giving importance to other people's lives and not our own, it means we're compassionate and capable of reaching out and caring.
Of all our works, our inventions, masterpieces of art, music and architecture, discoveries, these things can be wiped out in one big flood, I also realized if there are things that cannot be destroyed, it's faith and hope. And so is my love for all BL.
When I think about it, I guess living has still meaning.

Hehe, I am nothing but a brain, or a puddle of goo these months.
Nothing to do, I'm lazy and just at home lol.
Sorry for not knowing how to live my life. n_n