If I knew before, the things that I'd like in the future

Warning: Lots and lots of whining.

If I knew that I'd love F1 this much, I would have studied Mechanical Engineering.
The technical side of the sport is fascinating. Also, wiki says it overlaps with cryogenics and aerospace engineering. I am crying inside thinking of all the things I could have learned and understood! Boo.

If I knew that the human brain is so interesting, I would have studied Neurology.
Everything is connected to it, the master organ. Don't have to explain this one.

This one doesn't go with the title lol, but I regret this so much I have to put it.
If I knew I'd learn nothing in college I wouldn't learn by my own with the help of the internet, I would have studied Fine Arts, leaning towards Classical Painting.
Sooo much regret arggghh.
There's this term chiaroscuro, it's interesting. Also I want to study 19th century French and German art ;A;

Why oh why, my mind was so immature back then. They also explained my lack of concentration with hyperthyroidism, that my highschool was scholastically painful. Physics and Chemistry were so bad, also Algebra, except for Geometry and the Pythagorean Theorem if I may add lol, I was good at it surprisingly. Maybe because it's more visual it clicked with my brain that I understood it so easily?

If I could go to the past and guide my young self, these are the things I'd expose myself with:

-sports; well I was an active kid, until I was diagnosed with hyperthyroidism by the time I reached 13, so probably not as much as to do sports but to follow professional sports then? I'd let myself watch lots of F1. :p
-music; learn the spanish guitar perhaps?
-books; I'm lucky to have been given enough story books that helped me with English comprehension, so much that English was my best subject of my whole school life. I also remember we had this game/book type of thing about the 7 continents, totally helped. So I'd be keeping to those books, but add fun books about Geography, with loooots of pictures.
-world war II films; to be honest, Band of Brothers did it first for me, it woke me up emotionally. It just so happens that I watched it too late. If it wasn't, I'd be loving history throughout highschool. Also, if only the teachers weren't so incompetent, reflecting back on it, the 19th and mid-20th century wouldn't have felt so ancient back then! They were teaching us current events, like the gulf war, and not so current cold war of the 80's, but they didn't seem real. When I grew up, movies helped a lot. Why was I so dumb back then? ANIME AND SOCIAL LIFE RUINED MY MENTAL DEVELOPMENT LOL. Wait, maybe manga's helped in some way. Wish I could have been a total nerd at highschool, and didn't care about cliché teenage issues.
-lots of historical films; for nurturing my love of history! If only there was a chance to be exposed earlier, I'd realised that the countries we studied in highschool were actually real. I only was aware of Japan, also because of my own research. Fuck, I have so much rage about our educational system, and the apathy of my peers and the society I grew up in, about the world. It's not just about charity and poverty and saving the environment - how about culture? biological foundations of nature? the bible as a historical book? the mystery of gravity perhaps?!
-anything that is visual and hands on; from painting, to applied physics and chemistry, to astrophysics, history of art explained in pictures (the only subject I loved in college), how our society evolved so fast specially after the world wars, the industrial revolution explained in pictures as well lol.
To study, learn, and observe, everything!
I wish my ADD kicked in when I was younger, and that somebody would have realised it and let me discover the things that would be passionately dear to me.
Hmm..my revised self would probably grow up and be labeled as an autistic, a functioning and intelligent one perhaps lol. That's a million times better compared to the typical ADD adult that I am right now.


This turned out to be a long rant ughh.
Well it's not too late, still more chances to learn I hope. Just have to get sorted out for the next months since we're planning to move again somewhere farther South. My brain is incapable of planning anything when things aren't stable.