Well, this is it, the last night I'll spend in this house where I had been living in exile away from society for more than a year, and this island (the world's 17th largest island) which I had spent my whole life in.
In truth I am scared, I feel I'll be more isolated because there's nothing for me to do there not to mention it's just me and my mom. There's no job, no business yet, I'll just stay there and do nothing like what I've been doing here lol. Maybe it's a good thing, maybe it'll drive me to start painting, haha. The rest of the family will follow a year later.
Packed my bags with few clothes, my 2 dolls, 2 pairs of shoes, my books and notebooks. Funny there's not much, the old stuff I collected with regards to anime were left in our old house together with my old notebooks and drawings. We went there last night to look for things I'll be bringing and there will be stuff important to me that will be kept there, they'll be safe. Even the things I used when I was working; my shoes, bags, belts, everything - they have memories that I'd rather just forget but can't throw away. This is what goes through a hoarder's mind doesn't it lol?
The BL manga's will be with me, along with my crime books and world war 2 books. Wonder if anyone other than my family will question the things I engross myself into lol. But anyway, that's for another post next time.
A few things left to do, just have to transfer my files.
I'm still scared.. still terrified of flying.
Oh well, this is life for me, for now! Maybe..
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