days pass..

Very quickly they did, July 11th, 14th, now it's what? July 18! haha
I did not do anything.
And no plans of doing anything yet.
Everything seems to be in a stand still right now until my dad gets back to the oceans.

And so I'm just reading and reading whatever again.
(oh btw, I tested my headphones with 東方神起 Tokyo Dome Live, playing with the configs to make it more awesome and I just ended up missing them. :( Still I decide to just wait for the good news that we all want to hear.)

Yeah reading, anything. Keeping watch.
Am I just curious? Wouldn't it be better to prepare something, anything, now?
I guess I really am a conspiracy theorist, to have left and still came back but with more clarity, thank God our Father.
So preparing for the dark times ahead, spiritually, mentally and physically, would really earn me the title.
I pray to make the right choices for my family, even if I'm just giving in to my craziness.
Sigh, confusing times, and I may look and sound crazy paranoid (though really very little compared to what others have done and are doing), but I rather that than think everything is going okay.

God's in his Heaven -
All's right with the world!
-R. Browning

I've always loved those lines, and I trust God with His intelligence and wisdom.
Yes as long as He IS, then I will always depend on Him.
What I want to say is, if it's God's will for the world to upturn itself and destroy everything and everyone including myself, I'm okay with it and I don't question it because of trust.
But I will live life with open eyes, ears and mind.
I will still enjoy it, dream of things like I always do, but do it still with a bigger view of everything, and not just MY life.