truly FML

I got hired in The Aristocrat Restaurant, which is ridiculously famous, in the Parties Department and I can start as soon as I finish my requirements.
I got really lucky, to have this chance and live the adult world.
I should be happy right?



LOL I just feel like crap.
I terribly miss someone, yep the first ever real love, mai gawsh. Maybe we won't see each other anymore. Yes it's still Caloy, EFF U CALOY. I love you fucktard.
Sorry Jao, and to the others.
Wanted to draw again but my pen tablet isn't working no more, and my scanner is missing a cable.
3 days away from being 24, and the next few days seems so blurry to me.
Dunno how I'll get through this, I know I will with God's help of course, but man feels like it will be hazy days all over again.
I'm scared, FML. I can taste it in my mouth.

Goal is to focus on work, focus on saving for stuff, and try to learn drums a.s.a.p.
Father help me, I'm losing it to anxiety again.