There are days you feel: good, emo, happy, excited, etc.
And sometimes you're just so fucking angry.
FUCK, shit.
So angry, I want to stay at home, I don't want to fucking go to work that just started yesterday, where I'm not yet ready.
Fuck, you say? Yeah fuck me, I have to do this job so I can finally work for the things I want and want to do without anyone's help.
Sigh... I'm just so pissed, this pent up anger and frustration and anxiety, I have to release because I can physically feel it in my chest.
Same with when I'm depressed for a day, clinical depression/major depression.
You know, when one day you just feel like you want to die, or just sleep for a while.
But yeah, fucking life goes on. And until it goes on, I have to go on too.
So yeah later I'm gonna go to my new apartment with 2 new roommates.
I'm gonna miss our house, and my mum and her cooking, my bro and niece, fucking internet and my bed.
Fuck even gaia.
Ohh but when I think about having the means to play Mu Online again, the idea of working gets bearable. I know I'll enjoy it in the future maybe, before I get tired of it.
Boo yeah, I turned 24 this 23rd. Okay, life goes on maaan, just get (legal) high and tomorrow, all's kinda well.
I know I sound just miserable, but I thank God still, for always helping me.
edit: I didn't go at all and my mom said I'd better go tomorrow morning. :D
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