I think God can explain

NO. I'm not questioning where I am and why I am here right now.
I was just listening to this song, I suddenly missed it. Missed stuff from my childhood, 90's music and *N SYNC haha.

Although I won't deny that, it's because I am not happy.
I should be thankful that I have a job FFS!
Yet here I am, complaining how it sucks to deal with the people in the department. Every time I go out and see my kitchen and dining friends, I feel really bad.
It's not that the Parties people treat me bad, though I know they use me since I'm the new guy/girl and way younger than them and I have no choice but to follow and suck it up. I have like 5 bosses in the office which are way older than me except for one, and I have to follow all of them. FUCK.
I fucking hate it hahah. I know this is reality, every job is probably like this, but I know it wouldn't be this hard if I were to be transferred in the dining area as a wait staff, with my dining friends.
Though Sir Ren Ren and Sir Marlo are nicest, so thank God for them.
I want to... sigh.. maybe I can get transferred next year. If not, I'll just work here for maybe around 6 months. It's not about how easy or hard the actual job is, I can do it.
Ahh I fucking hate....!

From the 20-or-so days that I've worked here, I still advice my self to not get close enough with the people to trust them. They will not help you, and they will chew you for the slightest mistakes you'll make.
Don't let your guard down. They are way different, and they think you are too.
They all say you're like a child haha.
I honestly don't know why it's so easy for me to be like this, to seem so innocent and clueless, when at the same time they think I'm serious.
Be strong, hard like a rock, and just.. just finish the year for now.
Be more badass.

GOD HELP ME, help my heart.

Oh and, since I'm in need to get high and I can't find any, KOGAN and NSYNC was my antidrug.
Thank You God for them.