effective anti-drugs

For what, I dunno, but in reference to my previous post of the same date as today, these were the things that reaffirmed my heart that being an otaku/fangirl is the one that will make me happy.
I don't want to forget them anymore because of real life.

These were the videos. ^^

Gundam Wing OP1
Last Exile OP
Jigoku Sensei Nube OP1
Wolf's Rain OP

and the ultimate deciding video was:

ahh, I cried.

This does not mean I want to watch anime forever lol, because I don't like much of the anime now. It became tiring, that I can confidently say 80% of the anime available doesn't appeal to me anymore.

But this made me decide that I want to draw again, to listen to these songs always, to relive my childhood.
Oh my it sounds immature right?
It's in the past and we cannot live in it, but this past comforts me.
My heart and mind, is always escaping reality.
Instead of drugs, these things make me detached from this world.
It's wrong to forget about the suffering of real people, so I will not forget that, but I will live in my fantasy and make it as my reality. I can't escape this fact anymore. It will make me more positive.
And somewhere down the road, I will be able to do something.