make me unstable

I turned 26 a few days ago, maybe a week.
Still alive, still breathing.

 

My wish - for everybody to be forgiven.

There's no playing for me now, it got tiring again lol.

Man City is 2nd on the league table and I feel bad for Chelsea fans.
Nico Hulkenberg led the race and finished 5th in Brazil~
Take That sang the X-Men First Class OST and I didn't even realize it was them until we watched a re-run earlier this evening. Didn't even know their back as 5 because I didn't see Robbie at the Olympics Closing Ceremony FML! I feel so bad that I've neglected them, but I just saw the official video for the song and puny Mark made me laugh because it's unreal how small he is. I love him ahahaha T^T They're still awesome.
My brother has stepped foot in Germany, GERMANY. Have I mentioned it here before? Well I asked him to get some leaves for me or something.

Maybe I'm only repeating stuff here I dunno anymore lol, don't wanna check.

Whatelse.. oh yeah there's this channel on youtube and I'm usually just watching Dopefish vids these days. Along with Muse, some Kristen Stewart because I missed her ( and Chris Hemsworth, them together), and a bit of everybodyxNiall haha, nothing too slashy for these boys though. I seriously just look for zombie/x-men/survival fics of them LOL.

Also, some really.. well let's just say hard sensitive stuff that I came across one afternoon that it gripped me, punched me in the face and shook my being. The first one was about autism, and I seriously wanna write my feelings about it and learn more of it but it's making me emotionally unstable that I can't watch the videos again, at least not yet this time. The topic makes me think of a lot of things, and I have yet to sort my feelings about it -the condition, the people who have them and their families who loves them very much. All of those, it's just that overwhelming for me.
The second thing I stumbled upon made me feel terrible. I discovered the term bronies, just last night. It's not as simple as writing them off as degenerates or something, like what mostly do.
MLP:FiM reallllly makes them happy, and their community has a sense of belongingness that they need. Oh man, I too have my 'hobbies' that nobody knows except for my sister and a few geeky college friends from my geeky school lol. So I can't judge them.. not that I need a community, lurking is more of my style. Oh that's why I don't get it that there has to be a convention for bronies when it's so exclusive.
It just makes me cry really, like, how sad are we as people?
How lonely have we become?
I'm serious.

Oh dear, I need me my anti-drugs.