Tuesday, April 18, 2017

my dream

Someday, to finally have to courage to kill myself, and everything that comes along with that courage.
After doing something, when I feel that I've done alright, when I'm alone and no one will be bothered.
I hope by that time I'd have been able to live on my own, with lots of drawings and paintings.
That day I won't be angry, maybe a bit sad, bit happy too.
I want to die like that.
I'd thank God for allowing me to live, and apologize for being selfish.
I'll most certainly go to hell.

It's ironic because my blog title says otherwise but, suicide because I think I'm ready is different from suicide because I'm angry.
So, I dunno, might even die tomorrow.



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